I’m hurt

I know, in one of my past posts, I’ve spoken about getting hurt. Hard to control getting hurt, but still…

I’ve been fooled few days back by a fake recruiter offering me a good job with a good pay. Though I didn’t trust it much, I was made to believe all that until I received my appointment letter. Was utter fake with so many mistakes that even a kid can figure out. I was hurt. You know why? I dreamt. That at least now, I’ll make my mom proud, at least now, I’ll see her prettiest smile. I thought I’ll make her so very happy. I was building my castle in the air.

I’ve never seen my mother so upset before. Yeah she has been sad when I got less marks in a few subjects, but never this much. The reason- my dad. He is a nice person, but as a husband, he never cared for my mom, he never treated her well. He talks, to her cracks jokes, bit if she opposed or disagreed to something he said, I find him to be the rudest person on earth. He has even told her that he doesn’t need her anymore. End? Yeah? But no. My mom is so sanskari that she says nothing ends like this. So what if he says? Once something is said nothing can be taken back. No matter how good you are, your words define you. Again my mom was hurt much more badly than I was hurt.

I’m a very emotional person that I can’t even bear to see a person cry in front of my. Recently, a friend who I thought to be my bff has hurt me to the core. Yeah. Again it’s my mistake. I expected and hoped that the person was good. I was hurt.

I can afford getting more hurt by my bffs.

I can afford getting hurt by fake people.

I can afford getting hurt by breakups.

But, I just cant afford to see a single tear in my mom’s eye. Very soon many people will see the worst me. Something that I’ve never been before. You make that soul cry once, I make you cry for ages.

So there has been much more pressure and so much going on these days that I cannot say it all here. I’m not posting this for any sympathy purpose. I just wanted to lighten up the burden on my head! If any of you feel this was for sympathy purpose, do contact me I’ll delete it.

Thank you.


16 thoughts on “I’m hurt

  1. You’ll get a job, you’ll make your mother proud, you’ll be happy and as a reader I’m glad you shared this with all of us, tho I can’t understand the situation you are in but wish you get all the positivity and ugh all good things coming your way. (Just wait and pretend that you are ok for now well, that’s what I do) πŸ€—β˜ΊοΈ

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  2. Puja, it’s all part of life. These kinds of things do happen throughout the life. But when you take it with the good spirit, you get stronger. That’s what prepares you for the next move. Whatever it is never take it to your heart, never to bed disappointed. You just keep trying, in process refine yourself. You will succeed! ❀

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    1. Thank you so much 😊 ive tried my best to be positive and do best everytime. And i always screw up.. but thank you.. I’ll again try to be positive πŸ˜ŠπŸ˜ŠπŸ˜‡πŸ˜‡

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      1. Puja, I know its very easy for outsider to comment and tell “its ok”. I know it all hurts, but we just have to take things as they come to us. Moment we give up then there is no chance for overcomming it. So I said be poistive. But remember everyone screws up, our whole life is built on those screwups. You will succeed.. πŸ™ŒπŸΌ πŸ‘πŸΌ πŸ™πŸΌ πŸ‘πŸΌ Lots of love from here!

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